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We all throw dirty looks aesthetics at her and she continues washing dishes. "I'm NEVER going to work there. I wanna be a street person!" She says "I wanna be a street person" the way a five year old boy declares that he wants to be an astronaut, and I look down and I zone out and swallow big gulps of rice because I know exactly aesthetics what's going to happen. "DOGSHIT!" he screams in Chinese. He doesn't say anymore but you can tell what he wants to say in his eyes; aesthetics "how dare you, how dare you insult yourself by saying you will be a street person when I have worked my body until it ached, how dare you insult me because I have provided and pushed and prodded and lectured and demanded the good life for my children and this is what I get in return?" And this is how my flashback ends. I can't recall what I do from here, whether I run to my room upstairs and slam the door sobbing or where it's later in life, where I stare at a spot of the table and disassociate myself from the world at a drop of a hat, a talent I can still master
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